I feel a purge coming on

Warning: mindless blog post coming…

I am not sure, but it’s possible that I own over 100 pairs of shoes. I am not bragging – it just sort of happened over time. I have a pair of Minnetonka moccasins that my mom bought for me when I was a freshman – in high school. (Hey, they’re classics!) My mom also supplied me with a bunch of shoes over the decades that she no longer needed or liked, so I have plenty in my shoe collection that were free. Thrift store purchases also helped boost my overall shoe count without costing too much. I do, however, have some pairs that cost a little bit. Just a little. Like the $98 boots (but hey, they were originally $199!). And the Reeboks I bought for my study abroad trip to Toulouse, France. But overall, many of the pairs of shoes I have were deals. Finding cool shoes is fun, but finding them at a great price is even better!

That said, I think I may be ready to part with some of my shoes. A drop- off trip to Goodwill is in the cards soon anyway, so I may as well see if any of my shoes can be of use to someone else. Some may end up in the garbage, like the cheap black kitten-heel pumps from Target that I have worn to bits. There’s also the sandals I got in Maryland that may have finally bit the dust (unfortunately, I was out running errands far from home when the strap on those gave out – good thing I was near a Walgreens with cheap flip-flops!).

I need to be honest too. I have pairs of shoes I have not even worn. If they’ve been in my closet for over a year without use, they should go (except my beaded suede boots – they rock, but they’re too noisy to wear most days).

I am wearing some cute Italian mules from Mom today. They look great with my post-birthday pedicure (with flowers and rhinestones).

I warned you - this was pretty mindless, wasn't it?

Ah, Corporate Land

I am coming to the realization that what I do at my job does not matter. It does not matter not only in the big picture, but it also does not seem to matter in the silliness that is the corporate world. You see, I have done a lot of stuff in Corporate Land that is pretty insignificant when you compare them to things like illness, suffering, love, life, and death. However, the stuff I did at least seem to matter to the projects and campaigns on which I was working.

Now, the procedures I am writing appear to be completely useless – even within the project for which they were intended. My procedures seem to be a middle step between the process flows and the training materials. Thing is, there does not need to be a middle step between the process flows and the training materials. And, the procedures I am writing are too high-level to be used as the training materials – so someone else is developing the training – without even looking at the procedures I have written.

I wish someone else would realize this and let me go. I am not adding value to the organization, and it’s getting tiring. I have decided to start by subtly suggesting that perhaps the procedures that I have already done are all that are needed. Then, perhaps I could mention that I would write more, but the workstreams do not seem to need them anymore – they are focusing now on the training and the workarounds needed in case the systems don’t cooperate on Day One. So, I try to keep busy (or at least busy looking). I have volunteered to be of assistance for other areas – perhaps if I keep volunteering, someone will realize that I have too much time on my hands. (Sigh.)

Yes, I am job hunting. It’s hard to do that at work (ethics, anyone?) but if they don’t see that I am not adding value (despite my hints), they are not paying attention.

Fortunately, this too will pass. Probably soon – and then on to the next big project in Corporate Land.