Ah, Corporate Land

I am coming to the realization that what I do at my job does not matter. It does not matter not only in the big picture, but it also does not seem to matter in the silliness that is the corporate world. You see, I have done a lot of stuff in Corporate Land that is pretty insignificant when you compare them to things like illness, suffering, love, life, and death. However, the stuff I did at least seem to matter to the projects and campaigns on which I was working.

Now, the procedures I am writing appear to be completely useless – even within the project for which they were intended. My procedures seem to be a middle step between the process flows and the training materials. Thing is, there does not need to be a middle step between the process flows and the training materials. And, the procedures I am writing are too high-level to be used as the training materials – so someone else is developing the training – without even looking at the procedures I have written.

I wish someone else would realize this and let me go. I am not adding value to the organization, and it’s getting tiring. I have decided to start by subtly suggesting that perhaps the procedures that I have already done are all that are needed. Then, perhaps I could mention that I would write more, but the workstreams do not seem to need them anymore – they are focusing now on the training and the workarounds needed in case the systems don’t cooperate on Day One. So, I try to keep busy (or at least busy looking). I have volunteered to be of assistance for other areas – perhaps if I keep volunteering, someone will realize that I have too much time on my hands. (Sigh.)

Yes, I am job hunting. It’s hard to do that at work (ethics, anyone?) but if they don’t see that I am not adding value (despite my hints), they are not paying attention.

Fortunately, this too will pass. Probably soon – and then on to the next big project in Corporate Land.